I’m getting so tired of people giving me shit. I don’t even have a goddamn place to complain to, anymore. I shouldn’t have gotten married. I shouldn’t have, really. I am the scapegoat to everyone else’s inadequacies. Guests and Family come first, so it’s always left to me. The friend, but never “best friend”, the husband who “feels like a boyfriend.” I’m aparently somebody sometimes, but nobody all the time.
I join the Air Force soon.
Whoosh.
I am tired.
:X
Love does not come by finding the perfect person, but by learning to see an imperfect person perfectly.
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I knew someone would pull that shit out on me. I’m not saying it would make things impossible, but I’m still scared of it. Geez.
Sorry Sawah, but starblinded totally just found words for my relationship with my girlfriend.
And to you, Watch the night falter, Tremble, shake and die, And then, see now- I was salvation, Now only damnation. I was once purer than light itself, Now, I make night look pale. I am soulless, Timeless, Without compassion, Mercy, Without Love. One day, you will look down, Abyss will greet you, And in it, You will see my face.
I want to get high for new years, and nobody around is providing me an out for that. Drug dealers should be in phone books.
This is not family. No way, no how. I have no real family any more. I have outgrown them.
My girlfriend just revealed to me that a family friend of theirs happens to think I am a terrible boyfriend. I love this girl. Always have.
Is not really into hard drugs. Really.
Seriously. Drugs. Who has them? I will take Nitric acid if you assure me highness. Fuck today.
